I guess life is just a series of transitions, isn't it?
My boys are a testimony to that.. not only getting older, but personalities shift and grow, phases of wants and needs change.. hmmm
I always thought I was a flexible kind of a person. I am beginning to see my self. My real self as a beloved child of Christ in a new light.
I hate goodbyes. I really do.
When my friend Yvonne left to live in Canada with her hubby because of a great Univ. job offer.. I was torn up.
My brother died in March of '08. I guess that's a different kind of goodbye, since theroretically I can still talk to and see Yvonne and Lukas.
My Nana is having problems with her heart and now her lungs. At 89; she's already been preparing for her goodbye. She's talked about how long she would be here since Ryan
and then her sister passing away. Lots of goodbyes for her too..
But how about the goodbye of expectations previously held? Marriage, parenting, friend relationships.. It all comes down to people, too. All things revolve around relationship.
You really can't be an island. Not for long anyways...
So with transitions I have to expect a goodbye. Maybe that can be a good thing. Maybe the too-tightly-held expectations were a binding string meant to be cut loose. I think I tend towards a glass half empty attitude and I am trying to really see not just the goodbyes.. and the changes or transitions that event brings (sometimes really slowly) but I can also focus on the Hello's.
Nothing happening that I can really post about. It's all a bound up sort of jumbled mess right now and while I won't try to white knuckle the goodbyes.. I am praying I can see and appreciate the Hello's when they happen.
